Home, Foo Fighters; Including My Most Needed Confessions

I wish I were with you, I couldn't stay
Every direction leads me away
Pray for tomorrow, but for today

All I want is to be home

Stand in the mirror, you look the same
Just looking for shelter, from the cold and the pain
Someone to cover, safe from the rain

All I want is to be home

Echoes and silence, patience and grace
All of these moments I'll never replace
Fear of my heart, absence of faith

All I want is to be home

People I've loved, I have no regrets
Some I remember, some I forget
Some of them living, some of them dead

All I want is to be home...

I heard this song tonight on ER and it just seemed to touch me. Yes, I understand the Foo Fighters are not a Christian band, but who cares? God uses non-religious and secular evidence to bring glory back to His name.

I'm in this place in life where it feels like I just can't escape. I seem to be holding onto my sin and myself, not letting God change me into the man He wants me to be. I am just tired of it and I want to come home...just like the ER episode was about.

Abbey had made a mistake by sleeping with another man while she was drunk, a sin which she easily falls into as an alcoholic. So, after making the mistake, her husband comes home from Croatia and she thinks that just because he's home, everything will fall back into place. She had been helping a patient who's father was a parapalegic. Abbey had been distracted by her guilt and temptations and had let it affect her work.

As she apologized to the father near the end of the episode, she made a profound statement..."we all make mistakes; it's just that we have to learn how to not make the same one twice." By coming to this realization, Abbey made us examine the inner workings of humans and of God's grace for us. God is incapable of hating us as individuals. He does, however, hate the sins we commit. So, by Christ's death on the cross, we are now able to find salvation from our sins and forgiveness in God's eyes, which as humans we could not possibly have gained from a perfect God.

Forgiveness does not entail perfection. It is inevitable that we should fail, because we are mere humans. However, that gives us no right to keep on living in sin. Forgiveness, rather, entails striving for perfection and admitting that our lives, motives, and actions are inadequate to meet the needs of admittance into heaven.

So, I come now before God and my fellow man, broken, tired, and wanting to return home...God forgive me! Forgive me for forsaking you and for thinking that I can do this alone. Forevermore I will strive for perfection in all aspects and will completely lean on you as my foundation and rock through all my trials, until the time you finally lead me home...oh what a day that will be!